once again, we talk about me and my surroundings, and the realization that I choose to be angry and happy at the same time…

let me explain:

first: there is my past, things that led me to the boarding house, my emotions, that my family betrail me. and my past was full of travel and sickness that led me here. some things that I am angry about, some things that I treasure, and only left to keep me on this earth.

second: there is my bleak future, or what I have now. yes, I have the freedom not to be free, and all things ( food, shelter, etc.) that ordinary people can envy, but I always want to dig deeper and I know, that is my present and future

so combine these two things, I understand that I have a right to be whatever I want to be and I think that I feel happy right now, yes, people try to convince me that it’s not possible, but I live as I want.

even, if it means remain silent, I will do 🙁